ACT 2 (ALTER-EGO)

 ACT 2 (Alter-Ego)

ACT 2 (ALTER-EGO)

1.   THE EGOIST CONSIDERS

Well I won’t die for love or form blood,

But I’m willing to give my soul,

And if this is not enough, 

I will tie my mind with a rope, til I can’t hear it anymore,

I consider of giving up all,

But I know I won’t,

I just mumble my thoughts,

To the sky and the moon

Well I won’t die for love or from blood,

But I’m willing  to at least try to,

If I could die for —

I would shoot my tongue before my bones,

I will wait for distraction and chaos,

To wipe away my words,

As I figure out the world,

And questioning my goals

2.   INTERLUDE

Once upon a time they told me there is a place very bright, field with white lilies and roses at day,

The sound of birds and waterfalls fill the air all the time,

I haven't found that place yet but I'm still searching,

All I know is a place where narcissuses trying to be lilies and the void feeds your soul,

I came here by accident, I followed a falling star that I once saw,

But I didn't realise I was having a blindfold  all along

3.   THE EDUCATION OF A PERSONAGE

You shine, 
How can I recognise your signs ?- 
when your lights blind my eyes, 
And don't let me see your scars ?, 
Or is this your camouflage ?, 

You laugh or cry ?, 
Your eyes seem like sparkling, 
Did the tears you sed- 
the nights- 
decorate your face ?, 
I don't know your name yet, 
In which imaginary created worlds- 
you keep me captivated ?, 

Your colors change again, 
The battles you take are unfair, 
The stars on your eyes are dead, 
The cross on you back and your face- 
show you came back from the grave, 
How does it feel to be alive again ?, 

What kind of world you create in his head ?, 
Perhaps you are left in a dark place, inside his brain, 
This is why he can't remember your face and your name, 
This is why you shine with diamonds, glitter and pearls, 
To make the jail you live a bit brighter than a dead end,

The fabric of your soul is tearing, 
The times- 
you went insane dancing- 
and kept on smiling are not bright, 
What was the price you payed- 
for it all ?, 
What did u lose in the process and progress, 
You gave your happiness ? Your goodness ?, 
Your love ? Your emotions, 
Your all ? 

4.   NARCISSUS OFF DUTY

I wasted my time in a dream every night,

I saw my skin bleeding at night, but the scars disappear at light,

I stood on my points and tried to reach the sky,

Dozen of pirouettes and still was dizzy instead of getting used to it,

My ears claim to still hear the music,

My head is counting beats but I don’t feel the rhythm in me,

Why am I begging to be perfect all the time ?,

I bet it’s because of my family, I bet it’s because of dancing,

I bet my career choices and friendships were wrong all along this time,

Why am I screaming and crying while cursing my mind ?,

I bet I could point the fingers all the time, I bet that I’ll never be happy and satisfied,

And I bet that you are right and I guarantee to you I’ll lose my mind,

I think I created a person I don’t like,

But I can’t say it, because we look alike,

I think that I hate me, Im feeling it lately,

We share the same mind so-

I build imaginary castles, to lock myself inside them,

So I can at least say that I died but traveled,

I think that I mumble, nothing really matters,

The voices say that I do not want to do be me,

The ache says that I should just k— me,

But there is the leap of faith every time, that says “oh but I bet you can stay alive”,

Isn’t it pessimistic ? that these are the conditions to which I can love me ?,

I think that I know me, I think I could, if I get close to me,

But I do not know who is me, who is the real me,

I built so many versions I don’t even recognise which is alive and which I have killed.

5.   THE VALUE OF POSSESSIONS

I think I feel lighter walking en Pointe,

Not grounded on my feet, 

Spinning and spinning ’til I get dizzy,

My own reflection is testing my limits lately,

My patience is about to hit the final line,

It’s a waste of my time and sanity,

But I like to play with luck, and I know I’ll regret it sometime,

I keep repeating the same pattern in life,

I try to demonstrate the incredible strength and balance,

A series of attitudes and similar poses, slowly, but without stopping, 

It’s Grand Adage in the dark, I just point at the same directions all the time,

I know it all to well, so don’t turn on the lights, 

This is the value of possessions, 

Before you know it, it will shallow you up,Oh but isn’t it fun ?,

To lose your mind to the name of art or whatever you love ?, 

So before it eats me alive, let me give my last show,

Just a little more, until I trigger my skin and feel the need to pill it off.

6.   PEARLS OF JOY

It’s not a want from a human but a god,

I will be the legend of the fall, 

I will make mind numb before my bones,

I can feel the transformation,

I tried my best to play fair,

But this is a survival game,

I’ll make zip some bodies in a suitcase and take them with me at grave,

Maybe I can be a better human at a new place,

It’s not the tears of a human but a god,

I’m willing to sacrifice myself to this mountain of love,

Does It worth it after all ?, I don’t know,

I just want to feel something, tell me what to do,

I just want to shine through myself,

I want to scream “Im perfect”,

I point fingers at myself cause I am to blame,

Maybe I will be a better me if I change my name,

I will turn my tears into the brightest pearls,

And I will give my last dance with them around my neck,

Im willing to choke to death on stage,

I want to shine the most among everyone else,